It’s really been a while. And I’m not so sure why I haven’t been blogging lately. I think it’s because it hasn’t become a priority and I strongly felt that I should do more important things and engage in personal matters, rather than writing stuff which I felt wasn’t coming from my heart.
In my heart, I needed to experience God (more). So I try to do what I know is my pathway to Heaven. But hey, I ‘m not saying that my life has become a perfect journey towards holiness. The more I wanted to stay close to Jesus, the more I felt how weak I am and how a mess I can become.
It’s absolutely a struggle which I’m convinced that I shouldn’t give up. But I must admit, it’s difficult. And it’s only by the grace of God that I can fulfill everything.
For the past couple of months, has been full of discoveries and realization. Let me jot down some of it.
First, Facebook has become my best friend, and yet it also can again become my worst enemy. In the past, I’ve been guilty of allowing Facebook eat up my precious time. I then fail to do the more important things which of course later on I regret not doing.
For that, I am starting to be more conscious of my time. Learning to stick to my priorities is now a big deal for me. I try to remind myself everyday my goal and purpose why I’m doing what I’m doing.
The reason I came back using Facebook is the very high number of Catholic ministries and public figures that are active on this social media. From Catholic Answers, Life Teen International, Generation Life, Catholic Vote, Vatican Radio, Vatican News, National Catholic Register, 100% Katolikong Pinoy , down to inspiring people like Scott Hahn, Matt Fradd, Jason & Crystalina Evert, Leah Darrow, Chris Stefanick, Lila Rose, The Catholic Gentleman and Lady (two different Facebook pages ) and not to mention the inspiring music artists like Matt Maher, Audrey Assad and Bukas Palad Music Ministry, and so much more. These are just a few of the people that interests’ me. And that is why I can’t just ignore Facebook.
And if you want, try to look them up on Facebook. You might “like” them too. 😉
Oh I almost forgot, just a few months ago, I also discovered that there is already an official Facebook page of St. Josemaria Escriva! Horay! Please like it too, you’ll be inspired from their testimonials and updates.
Second, I’m currently writing on my tablet which I feel is a bit more easier. You see, I usually write on the spot. And prior to that, I try to gather first my thoughts and I type it down, then when it’s all good to go, I hit publish.
Not so sure if that’s a good way to blog but I hope that’s okay.
It’s Good Friday today April 18, 2014 and yesterday was of course Maundy Thursday, and evening Mass of the Lord’s Last Supper was offered. After dinner, together with my mother-in-law and Joserg, we proceeded to do our Visita Iglesia where we visited couple of Catholic Churches and pray in front of the Holy Eucharist. We were able to visit six Churches because we ran out of time since Adoration was only until 12 midnight, and it was suppose to be seven Churches. But I just read now that we can still continue later if we want to since the practice can be done at a span of time during Holy Week before Easter Sunday. Yey!
We also prayed the Way of the Cross and it’s so much helpful to do so if you want to meditate and reflect on our Lord’s Passion.
And that is how we celebrated our seven years of marriage. Yes! Yesterday was our 7th Wedding Anniversary. Nothing fancy really happened. I was just so thankful to our good Lord for keeping our marriage in His loving presence. I know that our Heavenly Father has always guided and protected us all the way. His strength has become our strength, and His love has become our source of all.
My reflection on our 7th wedding anniversary:
Yes, our marriage has been forever blessed. Right from the start, we have embraced and asked God to be in the center of our relationship. And He has always been. But with our fallen nature, we tend to forget, intentionally or unintentionally, I’m not sure.
Faithful prayer is a great help (of course) but I should say it will not be enough if it will not be reinforced with positive action. Saying “sorry” is absolutely a must when one did something wrong. Humility. And embracing ones spouse is definitely a good habit to practice. A kiss on the cheeks is sweet for the wife and a nice pat on the shoulder is comforting for the husband. These simple gestures can give a big difference on the lives of our loved ones, for that we must not neglect it.
I’ve been praying for the virtue of humility, and I’ve felt that our Lord has been given me many instances where I can be humble. Yet, I still fall, and at times I feel that it’s really tough. With what the world has become, I tend to be engrossed with earthly mentality and desires. And that is where FORMATION comes in. I thank the Lord for this, because I am reminded and guided by it. Finding and getting the formation we need is precisely important. From it, we can also get spiritual direction.
In marriage, humility is crucial. Jesus tells me to practice it at all times. My husband even said it to me directly last night. I find it extraordinary that when circumstances arise, God often reminds me on what is the right thing to do when caught up in a bad situation. And I know I should listen to Him more and just give up that pride.
And now, communication- also a very significant element in marriage. To live in harmony, we have to learn to communicate effectively. How do we do this? We talk from the bottom of our hearts, trying not use hurtful words. And we try to let our spouse feel how sincere we are with what we say. We do not argue, but instead we try to discuss what concerns us. And we try to be open. Open to listen, and open to express our true and deepest feeling. Doing it one at a time.
From that on, I try to grasp my husband’s message for me and I pray about it. He has also his own way of reconciling everything we’ve talked about and I only pray to God that he will then be enlightened.
I’m writing this not trying to show how perfect our marriage is. I’m writing this with my mind saying that all I’ve written down is and will always be a constant struggle.
For our marriage, we owe it to God, to our spouse and to our children, to fill our bond with so much love full of faithfulness and hope as we remember our promise to each other.
Third and lastly, my reflection for this Holy Week.
Love sacrifice; it is a fountain of interior life. Love the Cross, which is an altar of sacrifice. Love pain, until you drink, as Christ did; the very dregs of the chalice
(J. Escrivá, The Way of the Cross, Twelfth Station).
It’s never easy! But is it all worth it!? I firmly believe so.
I’m talking about loving our cross. Following Jesus and being obedient to God. Trusting everything to the Lord. And it’s all because HE loves us more than we love ourselves, more than we love Him, and more than we love others.
As a Catholic all my life, I have never realized the essence of being one up until I had the interest of knowing more about our Catholic faith and the desire to deepen my relationship with God. I then realize it’s quite simple, yet difficult. (You’ll know we’re on the same page if you understand that statement. And I’m sorry if you didn’t get it.)
Anyway, that quote above was initially intimidating for me. But I also have to admit that it has always been inspiring. Probably this is the mystery of it all. We see all the saints suffering, but why do we feel the joy in their hearts? We feel and see and they are in pain, yet why do they still have the energy to smile and be cheerful? Why is that? Have you ever wondered why this is possible?
I honestly feel comforted and inspired. Even though I think, I haven’t fully understood this mystery, I still want to experience such “state of being”. I’m picturing a life having that full trust, full hope and utmost faith in the Lord, not doubting, not questioning and allowing Him to move through me, and staying obedient to His will– that I see, is living a sanctifying life. A life which the saints lived. A life Full of Love.
I know that God will always bless and give me inspirations. But the questions is, how do I respond to it? How will I prove to God that I love Him too?
Gathering my answers, I will continue this journey. Again, I will struggle for holiness because one things for sure, I am NOT here for nothing. I am here to Love. To Love the Lord, our God and others. (Yes, easier said than done but I’m still up for it. Aren’t you?)
Prayer: Father, please continue to touch my heart and make it like Your own– a loving heart. Allow me to be more docile and open my mind so I can understand You more. Teach me to be meek and humble, yet not afraid to witness for You. Teach me to embrace my cross and to not be afraid of pain and suffering. I’m sorry for not listening to You at times, but please don’t get tired of reminding me, oh! I think You will never be. I love you and allow me to prove it to You every single day. Amen. In the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Amen.
Love and Prayers,