Reflections as I enter the 30 years of my existence in this world.
It was Saturday, May 31st, we had plans to go for a pilgrimage in Our Lady of Guadalupe Shrine, Tablon. And we set out early morning with some friends from the Work and a few of the Cooperators. It was also a blessing that my cousin and his fiancee came along together with my 10 year old niece whom the three I invited. I had to sweetly force my husband to join us because maybe he wasn’t sure what’s going to happen since it’s his first time to go on a pilgrimage. Thankfully he didn’t regret coming.
It was a bit of a tiring walk because we had to cross nine rivers and the trekking would take approximately an hour or so. Our pacing was fast so yeah it was definitely a challenge for me. However, I offered it all up for Our Lady and arriving at the shrine was a lot more fulfilling than I expected.
The shrine is simple yet you can notice that a lot of pilgrims would come and pray. A local, which was also our guide, told us that many pilgrims would come back because their prayer petitions would be granted and they’d like to say thank you to Our Lady. Not suprisingly, every Holy Week, the shrine is full packed.
And so we prayed the Rosary and the Novena then offered our intentions. I just couldn’t explain what I felt but for sure I was so happy and thankful. I was just happy to be with Our Mother and thankful to have been able to “survive” the trek. And being with my loved ones made it more extra special. Praying with them was the best. Also, I asked my niece if she was enjoying our pilgrimage adventure, gazing at her with a smile and with her big bright eyes, she replied with an absolute yes! She was happy that she went with us. Knowing that, I was overjoyed!
Later that day, we were moving on to prepare for the anticipated mass, to which our family will be singing in the choir, not to mention that I was assigned to sing for the Responsorial Psalm. A bit unlikely that I wasn’t too nervous that I could imagine I would pass out. It was by God’s intervention that I was able to pull it off. I really prayed to our Lady of Guadalupe to help me with my singing (since I didn’t have enough sleep the night before) and offered it all up to Her and to Jesus.
Praise to God, it went really well and I had one mistake.But nonetheless, I also got a compliment, to which was very humbling since it came from our priest. So thank you so much to Mama Mary. She really is our Mother, who will pray with and for us.
In the evening, we celebrated my birthday with the family and had some food and drinks for all of us to consume. Haha! I love seeing my family enjoy each and others company. Having some good time, singing together and just talking about life.
This is actually the very first time I’ve felt really happy celebrating my birthday ever since my parents died. To some certain extent, I’m very attached to them and yet I’d still miss their death anniversary or birthday. Maybe I unconsciously block these memories. I don’t know. I guess I just have to mark the calendar then.
Love and Hope
If you have love, you absolutely have hope (and faith of course).
Loving Christ as He has loved you is easier said than done. It’s definitely a constant struggle and yet if that desire to love Christ like He did love you is what you hold in your heart, then you are hopeful to move and go on taking every step of the way. Like me, I do hassle with it.
With this great love and desire to follow God, I know I’m not good with it, and I guess I will never be good at it. However, I also believe that I have nothing more important to do in this God-given life, but to strive towards the path were we all find the real Truth and Happiness. It may not be in this lifetime but surely in the next.
For that, I have hope. I have hope that my prayers will be answered. I have hope that even if my petitions will not be granted, we will still be fulfilled, happy and satisfied. I have hope that in time we will clearly know the plan of God for us, as a married couple. I have hope that all things will be put in place.
Complete and Contented
Keeping the faith and letting God take over our life is what makes it all worth while. It what makes me feel whole and satisfied. But allowing God to take over doesn’t mean we should not do anything, instead we should do what we ought to do, and that is living our ordinary life towards holiness.
It is in the midst of the most material things of the earth that we must sanctify ourselves, serving God and all mankind.(Saint Josemaría)
It is definitely by the grace of God that all these has come to my realization. And I do not want to get credit for all this. And the last thing I want, is to give an impression of how “religious”, “good” or whatever I am, because I am not. I am a sinner who falls and tries to rise up again.
Yet as always, I am so much thankful to Him for showing me His undying love and mercy. My prayers was always about asking for inspiration, and He never fails to brighten things up specially when the path seems dark and gloomy. God is not far, and He’s just waiting. He gave us free will and so He calls and waits for our answer, our “Yes Lord. I will follow You!”
Love and Prayers,